Commitment is More Important Than Intelligence

by James

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I’ve failed a lot.

About a month and a half ago, I had my latest failure. My wife and I have been enrolled in Hebrew classes. It’s our fourth class, level Bet-plus. We’ve gotten to the point where we can read this strange language and have simple conversations, like tell Shoshana the cashier at the local Super-Zol that Benzi the butcher told us that chicken is 50% off today.

Anyhow, about two months ago I started having a tough time with the course. It happened to coincide with starting up this site, as well as having a major project  thrown into my lap by my supervisor. Suddenly the times I would usually spend doing Hebrew homework were getting squeezed out by the necessity of devoting my time to these other, more pressing matters.

So I quit. Something had to go, and that was it.

I’d be lying if I said it didn’t bother me that I set out to do something and I ended up quitting.  But I feel that somewhere, subconsciously, it was probably a reflection of the fact that I didn’t care all that deeply about it (my wife has always been more passionate about taking these courses, as well – there was less “buy-in” from my end). In the end,  I was choosing to spend my time doing other things besides my language class – writing about chemistry, mostly – and when push came to shove, learning a language that doesn’t fit into our long term plans was an obvious candidate for back-burnerhood.

Learning Hebrew was on the  “nice to do” list. On the other hand, making this site useful and valuable for students is something I feel I need to do. Once I got the idea for doing “Master Organic Chemistry”,  I felt absolutely driven to do it, a) because I love the subject, and b) because nobody else is doing something like this.

About ten years ago, I realized that learning organic chemistry was a matter of necessity for me. I examined a number of other possibilities at the time and there was simply nothing else in the world I wanted to do as much as this.   There were tons of other things that I thought were interesting, and would be fun to do, but this was a field that I felt that was the best fit for me. Not for my parents, not for my friends, but for me. Through my graduate career and my time at MIT, I was absolutely relentless on learning as much organic chemistry as I could. I could honestly look in the mirror every day and say, “this is exactly what I want to be doing“.

So let me turn the question back to you. Do you have any deep conflicts about your course of study? Is it something that you truly want to do?  Organic chemistry might be a detested prerequisite – and that’s fine – but your course of study should be important to you (not your parents or your friends – you). Your major doesn’t necessarily have to be your passion, but it should be a choice that you make for yourself, one that fits in well with your temperament and interests.  Here’s the key point, as far as organic chemistry is concerned: the course doesn’t test intelligence so much as it tests commitment. Like Everest (it’s grandiose to compare it to Everest, but whatever), it’s not necessarily the most technically challenging course, but it is certainly one of the most demanding in terms of endurance and discipline. Just like in a language course, to truly do well requires constant motivation – and if you’re conflicted about taking the course (and would secretly rather be doing something else), those conflicts will ultimately lead to deep procrastination, and probably dropping out of the course.

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Cindy

This is true. First semester I enjoyed, but it was with a different proff. Second semester I had a proff from hell!! I didn’t understand why he was out to get his students when clearly we are there from 5pm until 10pm. I felt really bad after I withdrew from the class. Sometimes I felt I did let it to the last min bc I didnt’ enjoy being that class. Accepted it a long time go it would be hard, but I d on’t need a dick proff to had to the stress and the frustration of the class. I wanted to “stick it out” to prove him wrong, but I was only kililng my spirit by being in the class. I see where I went wrong and I am hoping this semester time at second semster orgo goes better. Thank you!

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James

What makes you say he was “out to get” his students? It can be difficult for profs to see things from the students’ perspectives, as they (myself included) can easily forget the things that were difficult to learn. On the other hand, is it possible there’s something you’re not seeing from his end that might explain his behavior? Professors are generally extremely busy people with a lot on their plate – research and administration as well as teaching – and this can take a toll on their demeanor.

I think you were wise to do what was best for you – withdrawing from the class – for your own reasons, not to “prove” anyone wrong or anything like that. In the long term, I find those types of issues don’t matter so much.
Last thing – I’d like to keep things civil here, so please don’t use words like “dick prof” in the future. Thanks.

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zohra

Hey James, do you happen to know Wayne Pitcher, MIT Grad ( my ochem professor?( just a thought))

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